Onions are people too!!!

I am just like an onion, I have many different layers. The only way you will really get to know the core of me is to peal back some layers and get to know me as a whole.

top layer... I am just quiet guy (only at this layer) who is pushing his way through life. I sell shoes for a living and I am a creature of habit.

middle layer... I can seem a little wacky at times. I dance and sing at random times. I am strong minded and make my point of view known.

bottom layer... I am a big dork who would rather be spending his time watching cartoons instead of sports. I have been known to listen to talk radio. I play video games. I don't enjoy large crowds. I rather stay at home than go anywhere (almost).

at the center... In the deepest parts of who I am I just love God. I want nothing more than to serve him and my fellow man (i just don't always know what that looks like).

Today (kinda yesterday because it's 1:42 am now) I got some horrible news. Someone I never met before in california died today. His name is David. He was 28 had a wife named jamie, a son that is 12 named curtis, and a 2 year old named Dj. I have known David for 2 and a half years now. I met him on xbox (this is that bottom layer part) awhile ago now in a time when I didn't have many friends. David and another guy named Jose filled that void for me. Our relationship wasn't just owing noobs or killing computers generated players together; we would call each other and talk about our personal life. (like: work, wife/ girlfriends, money problems, family problems, about our favorite things... basically everything). We spent a good amount of time on xbox not even playing any games but just talking through our trouble. Back in march David told he had found out he had liver cancer. Well things went down hill fast and 4 months later here we are. David was a lot of different things to a lot of different people but even from a 1000 miles away he was a great friend if even for just a short time. I know I sound like a big nerd right now and I'm ok with that. I'm just sad that I don't have my friend anymore.

Prayer.... Thank you father for filling voids. Thanks for a friend I never had to meet in order to be friends. Keep David's family close in this hard time. Protect and watch over them in this great time of need for them. I'm glad you are God and I am not because I could never make sense of this world... thanks

Silly World...

I doubt that there is really anyone that reads this blog that I don't know in real life (HI mom... HI dad... HI ect...) but I am a shoe fitting specialist. Which is just a fancy way of saying I know more about shoes than your average person. I enjoy my job (to a degree of course). I order some shoes for a older guy after I suggest a certain size and model. Well the shoe comes in about a week later (a week soon than I quoted him) and the place where I order the shoes from put the wrong shoes in the box. After I find this out I inform the gentleman sooo he decide this is a good time to question my intellects. He decides after he sees the mistake that he gets a discount... which he continues to inform me. OH PEOPLE... they are soo interesting??? (that's a nice way to say it at least)

My future wife is next to me in a hospital bed. She had a tumor removed yesterday that was the size of a BASEBALL. Surgery went better than perfect. The tumor was on her ovary and the doctor was able to remove the tumor without losing the ovary. The type of tumor normally comes in pairs and her doctor checked the other ovary while he had her open and it was nice and clean. THANK YOU GOD. She is still beautiful in a hospital bed.

This whole world can just seem really jacked up sometimes. I am sitting at work while my fiance is under the knife and I have this guy insulting me about shoes. I thought about leaving at that point. I thought about giving him a piece of my mind. I thought that by the age of 50+ most people wouldn't be bullies anymore.

Sometimes bad things are going to happen to good people. Sometimes good things will happen to bad people. But always God will love them all. (does that mean I have to like it?)

Soooooooo.......

I decided to come home to spent this beautiful sunday with my lovely future bride. And while watching tv at her house I got a nose bleed. My reaction to this was to show laura (i was just proud that i was a real boy). And her reaction to my reaction was to scream at me to get away. After laughing for a moment at her she decided her new responds would be to punch me in the face.

um..... punch a guy in the face while his nose is bleeding?

welcome to the rest of my life

Something that kinda hurts... Sneezing while peeing



Try to avoid if possible.

I love a couple of loves in my life: God, family, friends, music, laura, and..............SHOES
Today was one of my days off I spend a small chunk of it at our shoe distributor. They were having a sample sale where all their shoes were $20. I got 4 pairs of shoes and I literally had to make myself leave before I spent another 100 dollars. Oh well it is just money..... right? Check out what i got

BTW... this top pair is something I picked up for Laura... not for me.




Addictions

Soooo... This is my first post in a LONGGGGG time and the only reason why I'm blogging is because I dared Kelli to blog this and she then turned around and DOUBLE DARED ME BACK (can you believe the nerve of her).

Setting: Kelli and I are watching "Flip that House"

Kelli: "They should trim that bush"

Topher: " That's what she said"

OH YEA.... I DID

Topher's blog 2008... BIG... BETTER... BALLS TO THE WALL

Sorry it's been sooo long. Even though I am only talk to like 5 people but those are important people.

I don't think I will ever get use to serving God at centrifuge. I'm not totally convince that is a bad thing either. I am a 100% not comfortable here a camp. I'm running around doing things with new people. I knew this wouldn't be true but I think somewhat in my mind I thought I would get here and see the same staff, we would work the same way, and we would kick butt like we did last summer. Not true. There are different people here that react differently to the things I say and that know different things, that work differently.... just not the same. I am not in my comfort zone.

God, thanks for the moments of being shaken up. Thanks for the change. Let me grow through this experince. Let me be apart of growing others. You are refreshing and renewing... pretty much you're cool. Thanks