Prepare yourself to hear me VENT!!!

Gotta get this off my chest. I fully understand leading a team of leaders isn't easy. It never works well when everyone is leading and no one is following, but COME ON. All night we get preached to about how we need to be getting sleep and take care of ourselves but the our program staff set these impossible standards. How am I supposed to take care of myself if I'm not supposed to have even a minute to myself besides when I'm showering for the next meeting.

We got told, We need to stop doing things after 11 o'clock and start going straight to bed. But this week is considered "Christmas" week for our staff (every lifeway staff does it) and 11 o'clock everyone night this week we meet for another hour doing this like sing Christmas carols or building ginger bread houses. I can't take care of myself under these conditions. To top things off we only get one full day off a week but since it's Christmas weekend this week we are going camping (tent, sleeping bag... the whole nine yards). How pissed am I? PISSED... Not happy what so ever. Don't ever tell me I need to be doing something and then take it away from me.

Today I got to the point where my eyesballs just started to hurt. I was standing there with campers and they were talking and I'm pretty sure I was smiling but nothing. I was staring right through them. It might as well never had happened cause I got no clue.

I'm not a happy CAMPER (pun intended)